Guys, I hate to say this, but I think I may have to bow out of most movie nights now.
For one thing, I somehow stopped watching movies altogether while in Turkey. I saw exactly three movies in the theater there, all of which were with super analytical people who enjoyed long post-viewing debrief sessions in which we analyzed the selective portrayals of various cities and critiqued the political ideologies put forward in the movies. Yeah, fun right?
Romantic comedies were out. A couple cheesy musicals were in. Action and sci fi were altogether forgotten. And just like when I stopped drinking soda in college and discovered that it now makes me sick, Hollywood movies are something I no longer handle well.
I simply can't relax and enjoy them at face value anymore. Having sat through a fair number of screenings in foreign countries where I was the only one laughing at jokes, or memorably the only person in a Taiwanese theater who didn't gasp in shock when Abraham Lincoln was assassinated at the beginning of National Treasure 2, I now watch every film through the lens of what someone in another country might learn about the United States from it. Trust me, most of it isn't stuff we really want to be advertising, and Hollywood paints a larger-than-life caricature of our country that horrifies anyone lacking the context of reality to highlight the exaggerations.
The last couple action flicks I sat through left me cold for other reasons besides the idea that everyone in the States carries guns. Maybe I'm getting old, but I see an increasing resemblance to video games in the disregard for human life and chaos, the ability to kill without consequence, deaths that draw cheers or laughs.
The thing is, I spent my time abroad intentionally attaching names and faces to statistics, building stories and images behind things that were just footnotes in my readings before. I've intentionally tried to break down my own stereotypes about other groups and learn to see people as individuals with complex backgrounds, motivations, and ideas instead of part of a faceless "other" group. I spent time with marginalized groups trying to understand who they were and train myself not to see people as expendable nobodies.
One pitfall of this is now at church when we pray for the military personnel in harm's way, I secretly add a prayer for the people on the other end of our military's guns. Maybe that's not a character flaw, but certainly not something I bring up often because it leads to political discussions I don't want.
The other downside is that I'm now a total buzzkill at the movies. Last night my brother poked me 2/3 of the way through Red 2 and said, "You aren't enjoying this, are you?" Not one bit. That movie was one of the most inhumane I can recall in recent memory. If there's one thing I can't stand in movies, it's collateral damage, and the movie seemed to have no problem killing off every single extra as the leads delivered one-liners eliciting chuckles from the audience. It galled me. I was still mourning the loss of the first three casualties so easily disposed of, wondering if they had families to support or plans to meet someone for dinner, when another ten were gunned down. A gunshot death was played for laughs when the incompetent heroine fired blindly and hit a guy in the background while another character said, "Of course she gets a gun. This is America!" Get it? Because we...uh...give guns to people who don't know how to use them?
The loss of human life can make people laugh. Seriously. Needless to say, by the time the heroes saved humanity from "terrorists" and blew up a nuclear weapon in the middle of a freaking city [cue happy music and Bruce Willis kissing his girl in celebration as radiation leaks everywhere], I think they'd already killed enough random civilians to be classified as terrorists themselves.
The protagonists tromped through four different countries, destroying hundreds of cars and buildings along the way. After watching them tear up a convenience store in Moscow and then walk away without any consequences, I actually got really sad thinking about the poor guy whose business they just ruined.
"That's what insurance is for!" my brother said afterwards, trying to get me to shut up.
"Maybe not in Russia!" I said.
Cricket chirp.
They probably caused more damage than the scene from Team America parodying how much damage American movie heroes do in the process of killing the bad guy.
I know, I know, I'm not supposed to think about this during a Hollywood blockbuster. But to me, that's exactly the problem. I have to shut off my empathy system and focus on how much fun Bruce Willis and Co. are having, not about all the human beings who lost their lives and property in the process.
And that's not a part of myself I want to shut off anymore. I'm done with action movies.
That'll probably make me a total downer to be around, taking stuff too seriously that's supposed to be mindless, bloody, violent fun.
Oh well. I'll find other ways to have fun.
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Friday, July 19, 2013
Subconscious culture shock
Last night I dreamed that a group of Palestinian protesters burned a US flag in a public event, but instead of the national anthem, they played the theme song from the NBC Nightly News. I called Brian Williams to ask him if he'd seen this and if the protesters had the rights to the theme music. Mr. Williams told me that I should call them to ask, and also made me eat a taco.Then President Obama showed up to our choir rehearsal and made us sing Disney songs while he danced around.
This, I suppose, is what my subconscious notices about being back in the USA? Copyright laws, evening news, tacos, Disney, a President who dances...
'MURICA?
Side trivia note: Did you know the NBC Nightly News theme was written by John Williams? It does sound very Williams-esque once you stop and think about it.
This, I suppose, is what my subconscious notices about being back in the USA? Copyright laws, evening news, tacos, Disney, a President who dances...
'MURICA?
Side trivia note: Did you know the NBC Nightly News theme was written by John Williams? It does sound very Williams-esque once you stop and think about it.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
The Simple Life
People keep anticipating that I will have a very hard time readjusting to life in the USA, and for the most part they're right. For this reason it's probably good that one of the first things I did when I got home was pack up and go on a family vacation for a week down in the Ozarks in southern Missouri.
This is a place of rolling green hills, slow clear rivers, and people who will not hesitate to offer you a beer or a sandwich the moment you meet. That's no exaggeration- I seriously went for a walk down to the river one afternoon and encountered a middle-aged couple who were enjoying a picnic by the river with their dog. I stopped to say hello and chat a bit, because in Missouri it's rude not to, and ended up staying for two and a half hours because they insisted that I sit in the river with them and look at rocks. No, seriously, that's how they spend their afternoons. The woman was happier than almost anyone I'd ever seen, and she knew it. "I know everyone needs their computers now. But computers are expensive and I don't want all that Facebook gossip. What do I need that for? I have my dog, and these rocks are great. Ooh, this one could be an ashtray. Do you need an ashtray? Take another beer, sweetie."
It was a far cry from what years abroad looking at my own culture through the lens of Facebook walls and Hollywood movies had led me to expect when I returned. Turkish people tend to view the USA as a place of ultimate capitalism, a place where everyone lives in giant houses in cities of endless skyscrapers, where nobody will lift a finger to help another person unless money is involved, and where corporations reign supreme while the tyrannical government slowly squeezes away everyone's basic rights. Sure, many Americans share this dystopian view, but it totally fails to take into account the variety of life that still exists here.
Maybe I'm sheltered in my little hipster haven of Columbia, but what I have seen since arriving home is a resurgence in living small and supporting the endeavors of the small businesses in the surrounding area. The craft beer renaissance that I keep hearing about is alive and well, with every bar and restaurant I've entered serving a wide variety of local beers. The locally-owned restaurants and shops take pride in stocking their shelves with other local products. Local bands are advertised everywhere, and even in the summer when the college kids are gone, there's live music every night several places in town. Small businesses seem to be thriving, and our downtown area has only one franchised fast-food place. The rest is dominated by locally-owned boutiques and cafes serving food from every corner of Asia from Jordan to Vietnam. The small corner coffee shops still manage to hold their own against Starbucks, and people flock to them.
Of course, there's the suburban side of strip malls and big-box chain stores around, but I've only driven past it so far. At least here it's surprisingly easy to stay away from that and choose to live a smaller, healthier life where people are trying to make quality products and support the people around them who are also trying to make quality products.
I'm also living around people who so far have been able to hold a conversation for an hour or two without reaching for their phone, which is something else that surprised me. Even when I went out with friends last week to a bar, no faces disappeared into screens. People were engaged with those around them, and we had a good time even if the conversations were a bit more simple and focused on gossip than I'm used to for now.
Walking around Columbia, people always smile at you. They hold doors open. If they see you struggling with something, they'll stop to help even if it's not convenient. They ask for nothing in return except a thank you. It feels good, and I can sense the cynicism and paranoia that I'd developed in Turkey starting to melt away. I'm not worried about hidden agendas when people start a conversation. Maybe it's just that I can walk into a store and ask for help without wondering whether my vocabulary will fail me halfway through or fearing the salesperson will talk too fast. Either way, the sense of community is strong here, and it's genuine, something I remember trying to communicate to people overseas who hear only about individualism and don't realize how much Americans do reach out to each other.
So as I prepare to move into a larger city and away from Hipsterland, MO, I have to ask: am I living in a bubble, or is it much easier to live the simple life in the USA than I was led to believe while I was away? Is the niceness really a Midwestern thing?
This is a place of rolling green hills, slow clear rivers, and people who will not hesitate to offer you a beer or a sandwich the moment you meet. That's no exaggeration- I seriously went for a walk down to the river one afternoon and encountered a middle-aged couple who were enjoying a picnic by the river with their dog. I stopped to say hello and chat a bit, because in Missouri it's rude not to, and ended up staying for two and a half hours because they insisted that I sit in the river with them and look at rocks. No, seriously, that's how they spend their afternoons. The woman was happier than almost anyone I'd ever seen, and she knew it. "I know everyone needs their computers now. But computers are expensive and I don't want all that Facebook gossip. What do I need that for? I have my dog, and these rocks are great. Ooh, this one could be an ashtray. Do you need an ashtray? Take another beer, sweetie."
It was a far cry from what years abroad looking at my own culture through the lens of Facebook walls and Hollywood movies had led me to expect when I returned. Turkish people tend to view the USA as a place of ultimate capitalism, a place where everyone lives in giant houses in cities of endless skyscrapers, where nobody will lift a finger to help another person unless money is involved, and where corporations reign supreme while the tyrannical government slowly squeezes away everyone's basic rights. Sure, many Americans share this dystopian view, but it totally fails to take into account the variety of life that still exists here.
Maybe I'm sheltered in my little hipster haven of Columbia, but what I have seen since arriving home is a resurgence in living small and supporting the endeavors of the small businesses in the surrounding area. The craft beer renaissance that I keep hearing about is alive and well, with every bar and restaurant I've entered serving a wide variety of local beers. The locally-owned restaurants and shops take pride in stocking their shelves with other local products. Local bands are advertised everywhere, and even in the summer when the college kids are gone, there's live music every night several places in town. Small businesses seem to be thriving, and our downtown area has only one franchised fast-food place. The rest is dominated by locally-owned boutiques and cafes serving food from every corner of Asia from Jordan to Vietnam. The small corner coffee shops still manage to hold their own against Starbucks, and people flock to them.
Of course, there's the suburban side of strip malls and big-box chain stores around, but I've only driven past it so far. At least here it's surprisingly easy to stay away from that and choose to live a smaller, healthier life where people are trying to make quality products and support the people around them who are also trying to make quality products.
I'm also living around people who so far have been able to hold a conversation for an hour or two without reaching for their phone, which is something else that surprised me. Even when I went out with friends last week to a bar, no faces disappeared into screens. People were engaged with those around them, and we had a good time even if the conversations were a bit more simple and focused on gossip than I'm used to for now.
Walking around Columbia, people always smile at you. They hold doors open. If they see you struggling with something, they'll stop to help even if it's not convenient. They ask for nothing in return except a thank you. It feels good, and I can sense the cynicism and paranoia that I'd developed in Turkey starting to melt away. I'm not worried about hidden agendas when people start a conversation. Maybe it's just that I can walk into a store and ask for help without wondering whether my vocabulary will fail me halfway through or fearing the salesperson will talk too fast. Either way, the sense of community is strong here, and it's genuine, something I remember trying to communicate to people overseas who hear only about individualism and don't realize how much Americans do reach out to each other.
So as I prepare to move into a larger city and away from Hipsterland, MO, I have to ask: am I living in a bubble, or is it much easier to live the simple life in the USA than I was led to believe while I was away? Is the niceness really a Midwestern thing?
Friday, July 5, 2013
How to get engaged, Istanbul style
Step 1: Live here.
Step 2: Take your girlfriend to a romantic historical building.
Step 3: Have your friends prepare a poster saying, "Will you marry me?"
Step 4: Have more friends ready and waiting with a bouquet of flowers.
Step 5: Have even more of your friends set off sparklers in front of the banner.
Step 6: Have yet more friends scatter rose petals as you lead her toward the banner.
Step 7: Live happily ever after as your entourage captures the moment.
Never in a million years would I be okay with a public proposal like this, but this girl seemed giddy with joy. Good for them.
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Home in time for the 4th of July
Being abroad so long in a country where anti-Americanism runs rampant does something to your brain after a while. All day long, from all my students and friends, I face questions from people whose knowledge of the USA comes from biased sources, media outlets which pick and choose the negative side of America to teach people about and which demonize the country for its foreign policy and capitalist system. The other main source of knowledge is Hollywood movies or TV shows, a dangerous thing for us to send off as an export to countries where people tend not to think critically about media and assume that what they see is an accurate portrayal of American culture.
This has frustrated me to no end. Ankara is a political city, and for its inhabitants, seeing an American is immediately a chance to talk about US politics. I find it important to have these conversations so I can give them an American perspective and correct a lot of their very wrong assumptions. However, it is exhausting, because unlike the Europeans or Australians I've had the same conversations with, Turkish people's views of politics and culture seem to stem from inaccurate or heavily twisted information. Even more confusing and disappointing is observing how strong prejudices run- the cognitive dissonance of confronting a living, breathing American who tells them the opposite of what they have always heard often leads people to conclude that I'm just a very unusual American and their initial assumptions are still correct.
To take just one example, after the 2012 presidential election there was a news piece saying that a few Southern states were considering secession and a couple petitions had gone around. Somehow this became huge news in Turkey, and even now I am frequently asked about it because people believe this is a serious issue and that the USA is on the brink of separation.
Or people have been very confused when I tell them that charity donation and volunteer work are a huge part of American culture. This assaults their assumption that Americans are all rich and selfish, and I've had students try to explain this away by saying that people must volunteer to keep their image up, so other people will respect them more, not because they just want to help people.
But the weird thing is, after a while this gets into your head. I hear endlessly about racial profiling, about gun violence, conspiracy theories about Zionists assassinating JFK, about how Americans are selfish and only care about money, about how our society is falling apart, and a little part of me had started to become twisted and paranoid and afraid of my own country.
This started to melt away instantly as soon as I got into the country. Even in the stressful environment of an airport, the overwhelming quality of American people is that they're nice. The TSA officer who called me to the check-in desk for a body scan and bag search did so with an apologetic smile, and I was rewarded for the inconvenience with bypassing the boarding line and being one of the first people on the plane. (Side note: yes, I found a loophole to getting free priority boarding!) The flight attendants chatted with passengers about their books and their children. Everyone I ran into at the airport was friendly and helpful, from the guy who helped carry my backpack to the woman who let me borrow her phone to call my sister when we arrived. Yes, Turkish people are usually wrong about this country. I grew up here, I know better than them what it's like. And it's much better than they give it credit for being.
And yes, I arrived. I'm in St. Louis at my sister's house, typing away at 5 am because jet lag woke me up.
Other observations so far, day one when everything is fresh and sunny, and I'm simply happy to be home:
This has frustrated me to no end. Ankara is a political city, and for its inhabitants, seeing an American is immediately a chance to talk about US politics. I find it important to have these conversations so I can give them an American perspective and correct a lot of their very wrong assumptions. However, it is exhausting, because unlike the Europeans or Australians I've had the same conversations with, Turkish people's views of politics and culture seem to stem from inaccurate or heavily twisted information. Even more confusing and disappointing is observing how strong prejudices run- the cognitive dissonance of confronting a living, breathing American who tells them the opposite of what they have always heard often leads people to conclude that I'm just a very unusual American and their initial assumptions are still correct.
To take just one example, after the 2012 presidential election there was a news piece saying that a few Southern states were considering secession and a couple petitions had gone around. Somehow this became huge news in Turkey, and even now I am frequently asked about it because people believe this is a serious issue and that the USA is on the brink of separation.
Or people have been very confused when I tell them that charity donation and volunteer work are a huge part of American culture. This assaults their assumption that Americans are all rich and selfish, and I've had students try to explain this away by saying that people must volunteer to keep their image up, so other people will respect them more, not because they just want to help people.
But the weird thing is, after a while this gets into your head. I hear endlessly about racial profiling, about gun violence, conspiracy theories about Zionists assassinating JFK, about how Americans are selfish and only care about money, about how our society is falling apart, and a little part of me had started to become twisted and paranoid and afraid of my own country.
This started to melt away instantly as soon as I got into the country. Even in the stressful environment of an airport, the overwhelming quality of American people is that they're nice. The TSA officer who called me to the check-in desk for a body scan and bag search did so with an apologetic smile, and I was rewarded for the inconvenience with bypassing the boarding line and being one of the first people on the plane. (Side note: yes, I found a loophole to getting free priority boarding!) The flight attendants chatted with passengers about their books and their children. Everyone I ran into at the airport was friendly and helpful, from the guy who helped carry my backpack to the woman who let me borrow her phone to call my sister when we arrived. Yes, Turkish people are usually wrong about this country. I grew up here, I know better than them what it's like. And it's much better than they give it credit for being.
And yes, I arrived. I'm in St. Louis at my sister's house, typing away at 5 am because jet lag woke me up.
Other observations so far, day one when everything is fresh and sunny, and I'm simply happy to be home:
- St. Louis is great in that unless you're smack in central downtown, the buildings tend to be lower and there's green space and sidewalks that cars don't drive on.
- I had started to wonder if Americans really dress so differently from Europeans after all. Yes, we do, and we don't tend to dress well in comparison. Especially men. Yikes, American men.
- Mexican food is incredibly delicious.
- When I'm abroad, it's much easier to tune out the conversations going on around me because it's generally not my native language. My ears have learned to pay attention whenever they hear English because it's so unusual. With my brain tuned this way, it's disconcerting to suddenly hear English all around.
- At the bag claim in St. Louis, I heard a family speaking Turkish on one side of me, and a family speaking Chinese on the other side. It was incredibly weird to hear both those languages at the same time and be able to eavesdrop on both conversations.
- I really missed coffee shops. Not Starbucks, but the little local corner coffee shop that plays hip music and is full of the sound of coffee beans grinding.
- Istanbul is gorgeous, but Missouri is green, and more importantly it's home. Mmmm.
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Random thoughts from under the rock where I live
These bizarre questions keep popping into my head as I get ready to be super socially awkward when I go home. Keeping in mind that I haven't lived in the USA since the Bush Administration, aka my entire adult life, these are the kind of things I wonder about three days before I come home. In some ways, I'm like a foreigner, understanding current American culture through the lens of what I read on my Facebook feed and in the news.
What on earth does "twerk" mean? Do I want to know?
I'm still not clear on who Kim Kardashian is or why she's famous.
I honestly don't know if the heavy electronic sound of pop music got popular in 2010 everywhere, or if it was popular in Europe first, or if it was popular everywhere except for in Taiwan where people are content with their sweet, light Mandopop.
When exactly did smartphones sweep the country, and will I be automatically labeled as an insufferably pretentious minimalist hipster if I don't get one?
Speaking of which, why did the hipster subculture I grew up around in Columbia suddenly become mainstream, and get twisted into something that everyone HATES?
And on a related note, is this weird trend of being late everywhere and cancelling all plans at the last minute a Turkish thing, or does it happen in the U.S. too?
Has texting really replaced dating as the form of getting to know someone you'd like to pursue a relationship with? Do people still go on dates?
And are there even single Christians my age who haven't been relegated to "cat lady" status? It seems everyone I know is married and making babies already. Will I have people to hang out with?
Is the red/blue state divide really as polarized as global media makes it out to be?
How weird is it that I haven't seen a Superbowl commercial, or any TV commercial for that matter, in six years? Do people still reference those in conversation?
Will not liking Starbucks make me really awkward to invite out for an afternoon coffee/chat?
What length are skirts these days? Do people wear skirts on a regular basis? What about scarves? Do Americans wear scarves? I've become obsessed with both in the last few years.
How long will it take before I sink back into a world of Dr. Who and So You Think You Can Dance, and completely give up on having conversations about literature or international affairs? That's annoying, right? Nobody likes that, right?
Do people still read books? Or is it just in Turkey that reading doesn't exist?
I didn't even think about the fact that college sports existed for several years. Missouri is now in the SEC? What? Umm....erm.....what do people even talk about?
Oh geez, how am I going to make friends?
What on earth does "twerk" mean? Do I want to know?
I'm still not clear on who Kim Kardashian is or why she's famous.
I honestly don't know if the heavy electronic sound of pop music got popular in 2010 everywhere, or if it was popular in Europe first, or if it was popular everywhere except for in Taiwan where people are content with their sweet, light Mandopop.
When exactly did smartphones sweep the country, and will I be automatically labeled as an insufferably pretentious minimalist hipster if I don't get one?
Speaking of which, why did the hipster subculture I grew up around in Columbia suddenly become mainstream, and get twisted into something that everyone HATES?
And on a related note, is this weird trend of being late everywhere and cancelling all plans at the last minute a Turkish thing, or does it happen in the U.S. too?
Has texting really replaced dating as the form of getting to know someone you'd like to pursue a relationship with? Do people still go on dates?
And are there even single Christians my age who haven't been relegated to "cat lady" status? It seems everyone I know is married and making babies already. Will I have people to hang out with?
Is the red/blue state divide really as polarized as global media makes it out to be?
How weird is it that I haven't seen a Superbowl commercial, or any TV commercial for that matter, in six years? Do people still reference those in conversation?
Will not liking Starbucks make me really awkward to invite out for an afternoon coffee/chat?
What length are skirts these days? Do people wear skirts on a regular basis? What about scarves? Do Americans wear scarves? I've become obsessed with both in the last few years.
How long will it take before I sink back into a world of Dr. Who and So You Think You Can Dance, and completely give up on having conversations about literature or international affairs? That's annoying, right? Nobody likes that, right?
Do people still read books? Or is it just in Turkey that reading doesn't exist?
I didn't even think about the fact that college sports existed for several years. Missouri is now in the SEC? What? Umm....erm.....what do people even talk about?
Oh geez, how am I going to make friends?
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Follow up on modesty in Turkey
Yesterday I made some generalizations about Turkish culture and its bias against women, but to be fair I wanted to point out that while the attitudes I wrote about yesterday are certainly prevalent, they are by no means universal.
Today a Turkish guy friend posted this on Facebook:
Today a Turkish guy friend posted this on Facebook:
Translation: Rape is never the victim's fault.
"Not asking for it" is written under each of the figures.
"Not asking for it" is written under each of the figures.
I do know a handful of men who don't like the status quo and are putting the pressure on other men to stop blaming women for men's actions and thoughts. They're not even close to a majority, but they're here and they're standing up for women. And I really appreciate those guys.
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